Long story...

hhhmmmm...feel better today ....

Endang keliatannya udah engga bete lagi...hahaha...engga ngerti deh kenapa bisa kayak gitu...

minggu ini masih sibuk... jadwal kita masih padat ..so many request...so many thing need to improve...

Aku mesti mulai dari yang kecil dulu...rajin review and tingkatin kontrol...itu yang mesti dilakukan...sibuk...cape...ya mau gimana lagi...

Yang penting jangan bikin suasana jadi engga enak...kalo udah engga enak bisa-bisa masalah kecil aja bisa jadi runyam...

budget control !!..bikin pusing 8 keliling...

Padet...


Dirumah, gerald udah 3 minggu masuk play group...keliatan banget...dia lebih keliatan lincah...kosakata bahasanya juga nambah...eh..berat badannya juga nambah lho...ya..ini yang unik...

Hari ini, kata ibu gurunya...dia sudah bisa ditinggal mbak ari...iya angel-nya dia..hahahaha...alhamdulillah

Kita juga mulai hias kamarnya gerald...pake gambar-gambar lucu...mmm ada tuntunan wudhu..tuntunan sholat...belajar huruf...plus nama-nama binatang...

Gerald juga sudah bisa diatur kapan dia main game kapan engga boleh...insya allah...dikit-dikit dia bisa jadi anak yang engga kelewat manja lagi... Amien

Minggu ini juga ...aku ngelancarin baca al-Quran...ada guru ngaji yang dateng ke rumah..insya allah...bulan puasa nanti aku sudah bisa lebih lancar lagi...amien.

Oh iya..kamis minggu kemaren, Gerald nyungsep di sudut meja TV...wah sedih banget...dia ampe teriak saking sakit...darahnya banyak...aku...uhuk..uhuk nangis...kasian...Robert juga sempet panik karena liat aku panik...tapi dia langsung bisa nenangin semuanya...besoknya aku baru berani telfon mamy...iya takut dia shock...tapi ternyata dia udah tau....hihihi pagi-pagi mamy kerumah karena dia tau Gerald engga pergi ke sekolah.
Mamy langsung ngasih tau cara ngobatin Gerald, katanya kasih propolis...dan alhamdulillah...hari ini..luka Gerald udah bagus...


Ya Allah...makasih...

Tired..

Dear Blog,

This is the second time I write the story ...the first one was disapear cause I touch wrong the button...very funny and feel a bit stuppid hihihi! But cause of that now I can smile now...mmm Allah SWT is stay with me now...Allah watching me write something that came from deep in inside mymind and heart....

Yes,...I want to confess that I feel very very very tired in this two weeks....so much pressure...huge pressure...It down me till I exhousted !!...and now...here I am with weak body....

I got bad condition...can't think clear...

I'm tired...and it end with " I want to try something new !"...I still don't know what is that...

But I eager to try and have it...

Now I want something that can give me more time with my family...without bothering with financial support issue off course...but is that possible ?

Can I have that ?

What should I do ?....I want want ?...how about tomorrow ?...the day after tomorrow ?..next month ?...next year ?....the future ?.....

am I worried to much ?...did I really believe or trust that Allah SWT will help me ?...

Ugh...so so so so so.....I don't know...
I'm worried for something that never happen...and that's big big mistake FERA !!!

Everything came in the same time...that's the reason why I can feel so tired and weak like this....

Uncertaninty feeling ... yes...people know me as a person with ull motivation and energy...I try to keep like what their thinking..cause that's who I am...but I also have another feeling which is same with others...tired...yes...and I feel it now...

It's terrible feeling...cause you has lose your focus cause off it..and that's not good...


Hope everything will be fine soon....hasbunalloh wani'mal wakil....Amien...